I love this time of year. The reminiscence of the past year's journey and the anticipation of what's yet to come. For the first time in 3 years, I am optimistic for a year void of unforeseen medical issues. For the first time in 3 years, I feel somewhat "normal". Daily TPN infusions have become a part of my routine and I no longer dread the thought. I am no longer fearful of what others think of me, my ostomy or my TPN bag. I'm alive and for that I am truly grateful. I've learned that others' reaction to my situation is more about them and not so much about me. This realization changed my whole world and has aided in my journey to live without fear. This is something I continue to work on and I find the more I am able to approach situations without fear, the happier and healthier I feel.
